Life is humbling

In case you haven’t noticed, carving out the time to write about a fictional life is pretty low on the priority list for me right now.

I’ve had something better to do, and that is…be humbled.

By many things.  By the incredible generosity of the body of Christ.  This last Saturday we held an open house boutique in order to raise funds for our adoption.  We sold all kinds of hand-crafted items which either we or generous friends had made.  The only tags in the house had this web address on them in case people wanted to special-order any items — not prices.  We wanted the event to be totally pressure-less for other people and we wanted to trust God to provide for what He knew our needs to be.  We didn’t have any idea of what to expect, but we hoped that we might make about $250.

When we counted up that evening, there was well over $900 in the box.

Wow.  And right now there are tears in my eyes because I am lost for words at the love which our brothers and sisters in Christ poured out on us on Saturday.  My family is so thankful, so very much in awe at your generosity…I don’t even know what else to say but wow.  Thank you.


I am humbled by many things.  By my own inability to do anything apart from Christ.  By the way in which a cold, a College Math CLEP, an adoption fundraiser, and an insanely busy week can reduce me to an exhausted ghost of myself.

Over the past week, swamped in logarithms, baby hats, cleaning house, babysitting, and the most stressful testing experience yet I discovered Sandra McCracken’s beautifully encouraging music.  Particularly the songs In Feast or FallowShelter, and Jeremy Riddle’s Sweetly Broken along with were comforting to me as I studied past midnight the night before my test.

Yesterday, realizing that I could very possibly fail my math CLEP, I went in to the testing center.  I came out an hour and a half later, blown away by the condescension of God.  Not only did He not allow me to fail, He enabled me to achieve one of my highest scores yet…and this on a test for which I had very little study time and very little natural affinity.

Oh, yes, I’ve been busy being humbled.  It’s a process and it’s not exactly pleasant, but it is precious.  It’s beautiful because in my weakness, the power that is always Christ’s is more evident, more deeply revealed.  And that is both humbling and comforting.

In the harvest feast or the fallow ground, my certain hope is in Jesus found.  We will find shelter there.  Praise the Lord!

~c. a.


p. s. Now that I’m on Christmas break, I am hoping to get back to that novel.  Stay posted!  Chapter 6.0 might not be too far away.  =)



3 thoughts on “Life is humbling

  1. Rebekah Carniglia 12.27.11 — 1:46 am

    So glad that the Lord saw you through your test………the word mathematics can produce a cowering, cringing shadow of myself. (2 Corinthians 12:9-10) Delight yourself in Him, and He shall give you the desires of your heart, and, if I might add, the grace to eat humble pie when it is served. :)
    As to that novel, my writing juices come and go. Some of my best work is done when I have ignored my characters for a while:) They are not only more endearing, but also worthier of my greater abilities and imaginings. I am far from mystical,(you could call me sentimental,) but an ebony night or a pushy wind seem to bring back my love for words and all things literary.
    So, relax, enjoy your Christmas break, your family, the Lord’s blessings, and when the next chapter arrives, there will be cause for celebration:)

    Smiles, Rebekah

  2. Gah! Carreen! Life is so…life! It totally distracts me for months and months and I suddenly go “wait! There was this awesome girl with this awesome story on this awesome blog and I haven’t looked at it in months.” I’m so glad to see you are more faithful in posting than I am in reading. Then yesterday I rejuvenated my blog and it made me remember yours. So tell you what. I’m going to put your blog on my bookmark tab right now and then I will no longer forget. And sometime in the next few days I’m going to sit down and re-read all of your story that you have posted up until now and then I will be all caught up and educated and ready to follow and comment on the rest of it. Keep posting as you have a chance!
    Also I’m super glad to hear about how the Lord has been blessing you and things are going as they are. I look forward to hearing what He has planned for you next. I’ve never met you but I know you are a lovely and lovely-hearted lady. Keep it up. :)

    1. MEGAN!!! It’s so nice to hear from you…I think about you often. Usually when I’m listening to the amazing band you introduced me to, or when I hear this Chris Rice song that for some reason has always made me think of your novella from CW.

      And, to be honest, I haven’t actually posted in months until very recently. So. You didn’t really miss out on that much. Because life is pretty “gah” for me right now, too. =)

      Thank you for your sweet words, and not just on this post…I *have* read your other comments, and just haven’t been able to reply to them. But I’m so glad you’re enjoying the story! And I really appreciate the critique, though you were a bit more sparing with it than I recall… =) Anyway. It’s encouraging to know that I’ve got readers! Maybe that’ll put a fire under me to finish the other half of chapter six.

      Anyway. Thanks for stopping by! I look forward to seeing you around here more often! I’m going to drop by your blog as soon as my AG exam is over! I miss “seeing” you in class! I’m going to quote you and say that I’ve never met you, but I know that you are a lovely and lovely-hearted lady!

      And now…I pretty desperately need some sleep so I’m going to sign out now. Over and out, Agent Mellers. =)

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